Remember John Dewey?

I remember in my MACT Master's classes learning in the Deweyan way (I know that I messed that up...) You know what I mean, though? This is where we listen to all sides of an issue without judging--truly hearing as many perspectives as possible, with each having validity? I am still mesmerized by this learning style. In many, many ways it seems like a TRUE way to learn history, to explore literature, and to communicate on issues that matter.

As a teacher, it is really hard to honor Dewey and critical literacy (which I am guessing he would love) and have to be accountable for a zillion standards, MEAP test scores, homework, grades, etc. Throw into that pot apathetic students and parents who are, after following their child's progress for 8 yrs. or more, displeased and possibly defensive. I feel more like a dictated dictator--a robot some days...when all I want to do is explore literature and writing with my kids, and maybe have a little fun on the way. I want them to learn in authentic, enticing ways. I want them to learn to be critical thinkers. To not always just follow the current, but to stand out as an individual. I often feel like I have my hands tied. What do you do when some kids are at a lower el. level and others could conquer high school standards glowingly? In 55 min. a day, that is a real struggle.

Don't get me wrong. I love, love teaching still. I have hope that our educational system will flourish. I just had a tough week. I am reeling with frustration. I want families to be stronger. I know that no family is perfect, but how do you convey to parents that if they don't talk to their kids, tell them they are beautiful and strong and glorious, tell them they are a force to be reckoned with, and that the world is a better place because they live in it--no one else will? How do I teach my standards when some children are so broken? Where do I start?